OK I've been thinking a lot today, and the result of this is the poor mood I'm in at the moment. Have you ever promised yourself that you could and would do something and was so set on proving to everyone and yourself that you could succeed. That was me two months ago when I told myself and several family memders I would have something finished by the end of January. Well that time has come and past and guess what? Yep it's still not finished, although the delay was not entirely my fault I still feel as though I let myself down. I am known to leave things to the last minute, I plan to go to Nait this fall to becaome a pastery chef (It's my dream to own my own specialty bakery). I want this so bad but still haven't started my application and the deadline is March 31. Maybe my putting things off is pure lazyness or maybe I'm just scared to have to depend on myself. I am very dependant on others it scares the hell out of me knowing by the end of the summer I'll have to fend for myself.
Wow this just turned into alot of rambling. I need to find a job so I can pay for my school tuition (If of course I can crack the wipe on myself and get that essay out).
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